Surprisingly, yesterday I managed to keep the tears in check until the riders reached the last km of the stage. I had resisted the terrible image of mrs. Weylandt kneeling down where her son died, I had resisted the sight of Ann-Sophie putting a red heart where her boyfriend abandoned this life, but that last km was too much for me to take. At that point, all of a sudden, I found myself crying like a baby together with Tyler Farrar, with Fabian Wegmann, with Davide Viganò, with the whole Leopard Trek and with the whole cycling family. Wouter's teammates looked so down that I would have liked to take a car and drive to Livorno just to give them a big hug. Farrar was a destroyed man, whereas the support of the tifosi really did move me.
My father decided not to watch yesterday race. He's as sensitive as me and at funerals we're always the first ones to burst into tears. I knew that watching yesterday stage would have caused me to cry, but I felt like I had to watch it. You can't watch cycling just when things are going well: you must watch it also on sad days like yesterday. It's on these occasions that cycling needs its big family to stay close and, being unable to watch the stage in person, all I could do was watching it on my telly. It was like watching a colourful, long funeral. 4 hours of procession, no coffins and the feeling that Wouter was there, together with the Leopard riders and with his friend Tyler. '108 presente', as thousands of people said during the parcours.
'Those who really die are those who remain in this life', Marco Pastonesi wrote on today Gazzetta. In my opinion, this is one of the big truths of human life. After all, what comes after death? Perhaps there's another life as a different human being; perhaps there's a Paradise where, I'm sure, Wouter has met his old friend Frederiek Nolf; or perhaps, and this is the most dreadful idea, after death there is nothing. Anyway I'm sure that, after a person dies, the people who suffer more are those who remain in this life. Those who'll have to go on without a son, a husband, a brother, a father or a friend.
'Those who die are those who remain'. Those who remain in this life and also those who remain still, blocked by shock and horror. It may sound insensitive but, in moments like this, the best thing to do would be to take the time to mourn the loss and then try to go back to normality as soon as you can. It's impossible to make it in a few months / years time, but it's the only way to keep on living.
This morning, Leopard Trek decided to leave the Giro. In this case there isn't a wrong decision: everything the riders would have chosen, it would have been right. Hopefully the boys will manage to find a bit of peace in their houses, with their loved ones near.
Also Sporza's commentator has decided to abandon the race, just like Tyler Farrar. Moreover, this was the last Giro for the race number '108'. In fact, the Giro organisers have decided to retire it as a sign of respect for WW Special.
If you want to do something concrete to help Wouter's family, on http://www.cyclingnews.com/news/leopard-trek-create-donation-account-to-help-weylandts-family there are some info about how you can make donations to Ann-Sophie and to the whole family of outer. They will have the toughest task in the future, especially because the surreal atmosphere of these days will soon be gone and they will finally be able to realise the gravity of their loss. May they have all the stength of this world, because they're really gonna need it.
As I said previously, the best thing to do in these cases is to try going back to normal life. Although I didn't know Wouter, the last two days have been pretty hard for me and, honestly, today I didn't feel like watching the Giro. But then I saw that the riders, although they were probably feeling much worse than me, were doing their best to honour the race, so I watched the last part of the stage. Here I'm writing some observations of mine about it.
First of all, it must be said that today stage was pretty dangerous. In fact the cyclists had to face some gravel roads and, as you all know, gravel can be very tricky (when I was little, I had some very epic crashes on the gravel road outside my house... ). Obviously safety is a very hot topic right now and some riders have complained for the difficulty of the parcours. However, I think it's too late to complain about the parcourses now: if the riders really didn't want to face the gravel roads, they should have said it before, when the Giro route was announced.
Anyway, I agree with Di Luca about the fact that road cyclists should race on roads, because they're not cyclocross riders and they're not mountain bike riders. If a rider wants to ride on gravel roads, he can go to Eroica. And the same goes for the Tour: if someone wants to race on cobblestones, he can go go to Roubaix. It should be up to the riders to decide whether they want to ride on gravel roads or cobblestones, it shouldn't be the GT organisers that force the guys to face such particular terrains!
Said that, we can go on.
On the gravel descents Nibali showed a lot of braveness, whereas Tankink clearly looked in troubles. Many riders crashed and the most unlucky guy was poor Tom Slagter. Surprisingly, his crash didn't occur on a gravel descent, but in an asphalt part of the stage.
As soon as I saw the Rabobank rider lying on the asphalt, I froze. 'Here we go again!', I thought. Saxo Bank and Euskaltel's mechanics were screaming and Tom wasn't moving and looked unconscious. Then, luckily, he started moving his legs and he started talking. He was immediately taken to the hospital, where he discovered he has broken his eye orbit bone and that he's suffered a concussion. Hopefully he'll feel better soon.
Some of the other riders who crashed were Cataldo, Kiryenka (he fell in a really stupid way), Millar and Vicioso. These last two riders touched wheels with one another and fell together. Not a very lucky Giro for them, since Millar has worn the Maglia Rosa on two of the saddest days in cycling history, whereas Vicioso has won the saddest stage ever. I don't want to imagine how he felt right after he had won, when his ds told him through the radio: 'I'm really sorry, Angel, but something very bad has happened...', making his joy disappear all of a sudden. The poor boy burst into tears as soon as he got to know about Wouter and no one will remember his stage win as a happy one.
However, the riders weren't the only ones who had problems on the gravel roads: Savoldelli's motorbike in fact got blocked in the middle of a gravel climb and he had to push it for a lot of meters. Before he had that problem, Paolo had mentioned a Vacansoleil rider who was 'cursing while riding' and another cyclist (Reda) who stopped at the side of the road in order to let the white dust provoked by the cars disappear. Reda didn't hop back on his bike as long as the white dust disappeared and I think this is a very funny anedocte.
Talking about the race, Martin Kohler broke clear of the peloton after 12 kms and he was caught with 11 kms to go: chapeau to him!
Niemiec was very good, Nibali was extremely brave, Tankink was very unlucky, Stetina showed he's a true cycling promise, Lovkvist said 'I'm here too!', Di Luca rode without saddle and John Gadret attacked very often. But in the end, the winner du jour was the skinny Pieter Weening from Rabobank, who won the stage and got the Maglia Rosa from Millar. He looked very enthusiastic after the finish-line and I'm very happy for him and for Tien & Marleen from Ride On! ;)
Before closing this post, I have some quick communications for you all:
First of all, the girls at 'Bananas about Bikes' would like to create a little tribute post for Wouter Weylandt. Therefore, if you have pictures / supporter's stories regarding him, we'd be very happy to receive them and publish them in the next days. As you know, our e-mail address is bananasaboutbikes@gmail.com . Every contribution would be very much welcomed.
Still talking about the poor Wouter, I didn't answer the comments that some of you wrote about my last post because I think there's nothing to add to what we all have already said.
Third thing to say, in the next days I'll probably try to bring back some cheerfulness on this webpage: anyway, I want you to know that I'll always remember WW Special.
Pic 1 by Riccardo Scanferla; pic 2 by Bettini (Rabobank Orange + Giro Pink = No, not again!!!)

Yeah, life goes on. If I've learned anything in the past four months that would be it.
RispondiEliminaI'm impressed that you didn't cry until the end. I practically cried through the whole stage but it was nice in a way and afterwards I felt a little better. The final kilometres were very nearly the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
I'd decided I wanted to watch today's stage but without much enthusiasm. It was nice, though, to see the riders try to return to normal and honour the race. I almost had a heart attack when I saw Slagter crash (btw, I still giggle when reading that name because in Danish that means butcher xD) and I'm glad he's OK.
Rabobank Orange + Giro Pink is just horrible! xD
WW 108 - forever <3
RispondiEliminaI got home early today (thanks to my teacher for finishing earlier) and got to see the final part of the stage.. and Pieter Weening won. Some of you know this, but my sister and I have been supporting him for quite some years now (since 2005), so you can imagine we were happy ;) (Oh btw, Fede, "I'm very happy for him and for Marleen from Ride On!" - I'd say: Tien and Marleen, because Tien is a bigger fan than me, Pieter is her #1 rider, I have more top faves.. she just said that haha when she saw it ;)) Steven in the white jersey - also great!! :-)
Such mixed feelings though.. Tom Jelte fell, injured and going to the hospital.. Wouter in our minds, Pieter winning.. you cheer, but you feel sad, you are happy, but you don't really feel happy. It's weird. It was beautiful though that Pieter dedicated his victory to Wouter.. <3
Susanne, actually, in Dutch Slagter also means butcher ;) So his great great great great grandfather was most likely a butcher ;) I'm so happy he's "okay" - that he will recover from his injuries.. gosh, all those crashes :(
I have nothing to add. Fede, you can write it down just perfect. <3
RispondiEliminaI should have been in Orvieto these days but I didn't feel like it; you are right, the show must go on and with it also our (hopeless?) feelings as spectators of this tragedy. As Marleen said mixed feeling and a sense of disbelief because one never thinks the things we love can do any harm.
RispondiEliminaI cannot say much about about the stages, I was in the Uni doing my duty, or pretending to, and trying to recap as I could in the evening.
But now I'm watching the stage :-) I even managed to see Andy to caution, hum, caution with the bike on the streets, all in italian.
Francesca
@ Susanne: Before that last km, I had actually cried while reading the Gazzetta dello Sport. In it in fact there were the messages that Wouter's parents and his sister had written on the sheets of paper that they left on Passo del Bocco and, moreover, there was the description of a very touching image. In fact, on Monday night, poor An Sophie (to whom I send all the support of this world) sat outside Leopard Trek's hotel, crying, with a little teddy bear in her hands: she had bought it a few weeks before, together with Wouter, and it was going to be the first present for her daughter. This fact made me feel so sad!!!!
RispondiEliminaDuring ths stage, I was actually going to cry when I saw the images of that last climb in Livorno (all those people clapping their hands and showing the number 108 while the bells were tolling... It was so touching!) and when I saw the heartbreaking images of Wouter's family on Passo del Bocco.
But still, I somehow managed to keep the tears in check until the riders reached the last km of the day. At that point, I simply freed all my emotions: I had tears running down my cheeks and I was sobbing like a baby. Watching the pain on Farrar and Wegmann's faces just made things worse, but in that moment I did think that we're just one big family. In some way, that thought and those tears managed to make me feel a bit better too.
Slagter's crash really scared me and I got pretty angry because on today's newspaper people said that he crashed because he can't ride his bike and because the Euskaltel mechanic can't do his job. I thought it was just unfair to say these things about Tom, because he's had a very serious crash, he's young and right now he surely doesn't need to read bitter comments like this.
@ Tien: Big apologise to you, dear!!! I'm immediately correcting that part of the post, I didn't know Weening was your favourite rider! He was very nice after the finish-line, when he controlled his happiness in order to dedicate his victory to Wouter. I finally needed to see a rider smiling again after these last horrible days!
@ Marleen: Steven is really good and I was actually a bit shocked when I discovered that he's just 24. I've always thought of him as a very solid, experienced rider, instead he's so young! :P
Yesterday was a very strange day indeed. When I watched Pieter cheering, I couldn't help thinking about Wouter. He could have taken part in that stage too and instead... I watched the stage without my usual enthusiasm, I kept on asking my father obvious things and he actually looked a bit worried (I couldn't even understand who was at the front and who wasn't, everything was so weird!).
@ Mar: Thank you dear, you're always so nice with me! :)
Hi Miss Fede. I agree with Mar. I don't have anything to add either, you articulate it all so well. I just want to say that I'm hear and reading. :)
RispondiEliminaHi Natasha! Thank you very much for these words! Since I'd really love to become a cycling journalist, they really do mean a lot to me! :)
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